Fear is an interesting thing. Or at least how people respond to it is.

We all have fear. For me at this moment I am finding myself afraid to go back to work. It’s not the work of course. That’s easy and my bosses are mellow and understanding, even in difficult corporate and economic times. What I am afraid of is being so far from the comfort of my home.  Here if I feel bad I can go to my room and take a nap. There, if I need to leave I am still 30 or 40 minutes from home.

I can’t stay home until this is all over either. Can’t afford that on a number of levels. So I am going but I am going to compromise with my fear. I am taking the car to work. It’s expensive but at least with it there (and the blankets and pillows in the back seat) I can retreat to a personal environment should things go south today. I’ll get over it soon. Probably once today is over and it all goes OK. Still, while I feel it, fear is a hard one to negotiate with any grace and especially hard to negotiate with any degree of rationality.