January 21st, 2012
dream solutions
I’ve been struggling with the idea of a manuscript – and specifically what it would be about. Even more difficult seems to be recognizing solutions when they appear.
For example, I had a dream last night about a stone staircase leading down from an esplanade to a beach. I think I’ve dreamed of this place before – I have vague memories of a buildings in the town. This time the entire action of the dream involved me feeling with my bare feet and hands the rather cool silky sands of the beach.
The question remains how does this suggest a solution to my problem of constructing this manuscript.
I had a bit of a flash about this today – in that the staircase may be a metaphor for the shape of the thing. The problem with bodies is that they don’t think with words but with movement patterns, actions, shapes, smells, etc. So how can a piece of writing, a series of poems to be exact, be understood as the shape of a staircase? And the sand? It is to feel like the sand did in the dream?
Going to bed to think about this some more.
December 22nd, 2011
a light day
Once the light started to come back I started the day by walking the dog to the park and back. It was cold and clear and so once I got home I packed up and headed out. I took the ferry to Bowen Island and I just wandered around. It’s a lovely little rocky, heavily green place with so much water and bird life that it made the perfect place to spend the first day of the new solar year.
For most of the day, walking around the little lake, moving carefully along the cliff edge, even walking up and down the deck of the small ferry it was if Mary Oliver’s soft animal of the body was snick, snick, snicking with contentment. It’s as if only with regular, rhythmic movement the body knows it is alive, and so only then, and only on that contented somatic basis, the many selves who together constitute Mary can leaf out a green happiness.
November 23rd, 2011
shape, space and meaning in poetry
This post responds to Qunqun’s query in the comments on an earlier post (obsess a lot? November 21).
The class talks about white space and its impact on meaning. One of the things about white space is that it can be a passive space, its shape completely determined by the text. In this example the white space is determined by the characters. The space, as the text says, makes meaning possible but it doesn’t actively provide meaning in and of itself.

Imagine “30 spokes” presented differently – in some way that would create white space that represents the insight of the poem.
As for my bitty, the exercise in the class asked us to create a poem in which the white space was considered as important as the text. There are many ways to do that of course but this is the one that I took to class.

This kind of poetry is not my natural metier but there is much to be learnt from attention to what is not normally seen.
November 8th, 2011
Holderlin and Benn / poems
A friend sent me a copy of this Holderlin poem today. I’ve been thinking about this idea, the fullness of experience, the intensity of a moment fully experienced. It only seems to come when judgement is sleeping, when what ever is, is simply here. Do you find that?
A single summer grant me, great powers, and
A single autumn for fully ripened song
That, sated with the sweetness of my
Playing, my heart may more willingly die.
The soul that, living, did not attain its divine
Right cannot repose in the nether world.
But once what I am bent on, what is
Holy, my poetry is accomplished,
Be welcome then, stillness of the shadows' world!
I shall be satisfied, though my lyre will not
Accompany me down there. Once I
Lived like the gods, and more is not needed.
It’s a lovely poem but still there is a sense in Holderlin of the “there” – the place that is not “here” and I react poorly to such a suggestion. For me, the shadows do not need to come since they are already here. At least that’s my sense of a moment completely experienced. There is the ping ping ping of living but there is also the silence between.
As much as I appreciate Holderlin, I prefer Benn’s morgue poems.
Here are two of my favourites.
Little Aster A drowned beer-hauler was heaved onto the slab. Someone had wedged a lavender aster between his teeth. As I reached through the chest under the skin with a long knife to cut out the tongue and palate I must have bumped the flower, for it slid into the brain lying alongside. I packed it into the chest cavity with the sawdust as we sewed up. Drink your fill in that vase! Rest in peace, little aster!
A Fine Childhood The mouth of a girl who had long lain in the reeds looked so chewed up. When we broke open the torso, the esophagus was so full of holes. Finally in a bower under the diaphragm we found a nest of young rats. One little sister rat lay dead. The others were living off liver and kidney, drinking the cold blood and enjoying a fine childhood. And fine and fast was their death too: we threw the whole bunch into water. Oh, how those little snouts squeaked!
Got to appreciate the shadows too. It’s as if to appreciate the moment, one must walk with the shadow in one hand and the light in the other.
November 5th, 2011
bleh, bleh, bleh
and down most of today as well -
but -
wahooooooo!
I am live again.
November 4th, 2011
bleh
internet down all day
October 15th, 2011
in a cloud
In a mental cloud, an occasional raw pain striking, cold and tired. Not a good day for much thinking. See you tomorrow.
October 8th, 2011
howlingly funny
Not only do these guys not like actual non-Christians, they don’t even like each other. Bodes well for 2012. Pretty soon, if they talk to each other too much, there are going to be about 1,000,000 religious/political parties of 1.
It wasn’t all anti-Obama speeches at the Values Voters Summit Friday. Texas evangelical leader Robert Jeffress introduced Texas Gov. Rick Perry as a “a genuine follower of Jesus Christ,” and then explained his word choice by telling reporters that Mitt Romney “is not a Christian.”
Sort of like Obama’s not an American? Dude! You made my day.
October 7th, 2011
wowzers Eric Cantor
Eric Cantor: “the tea party has been a tremendously positive input, I think, in this election” 1:05-1:09
Eric Cantor: “If you read the newspapers today, I for one am increasingly concerned about the growing mobs occupying Wall Street and the other cities across the country. And believe it or not, some in this town have actually condoned the pitting of Americans against Americans.”
Holy fucking cow. And with a straight face.
Remember this:
September 14th, 2011
poetry of grief and rage, Beothuk Poems by Sid Stephen
Canada has this fascination for its own brutal history as exemplified by the death of the Beothuk people. Much written material has come out trying to understand the brutality and callousness built into the country’s being. One of these bits of writing is a slim little book of poetry by Sid Stephens called Beothuk Poems.
There are, of course, no poems existing by a Beothuk person because they are all dead. Hunted, killed. The captured woman Shawnadithit was probably the last survivor, or near it anyway, and she died in 1829. Apart from her history, there are a few skeletons, some bits of tribal technology, and Shawnadithit’s few drawings.
Her capture (a bounty offered by the government so they could send word with her back to the remaining tribe but resulting in the slaughter of most of the remaining men because they were deemed to hard to catch alive) was part of the demise of the Beothuk, and a large part I suspect of the grief and rage Canada has with respect to our past, our behaviour and perhaps fear at that of which we are proved capable.
The problem is that we know, although we fight the knowledge, that it’s no good saying it’s all in the past because cruelty never is. It’s just so easy to achieve, and so easy to pretend isn’t happening.
White Settlements Between the forest and the other dark lost land of the sea the first white settlers hang like bits of wax on candle rims, indefinite, undefined by street or schools, melting at the back doors into the great flame-like heart of this island. The sudden warmth of cobwebs on the face at night, infernoes of indians flicker in the trees as easily as water flows among the strange grey rocks. Alone, unknowing: cold sparks of fear of sickness, injury, of indians and thunderstorms, of madness and devils and the dark endless woods are struck in dry white minds to feed communities of panic, the paranoia of civilization becomes rooted in the land like a myth.
The deep nature of our fear and grief at the disconnect between the National myth of our politeness and the actual exemplars of our collective potential makes writing poetry about it really difficult. It’s not that the words won’t come. They do. It’s that when they come they pull up so much pain that writing outside it becomes nearly impossible; and reading outside it seems doubly difficult.
Does Stephen manage? To some extent, but not really. There are moments in the book of empathy and great beauty but there is enough of the fear and guilt that it is hard to stay in the world of the beauty that is the Beothuk.
And I think that is what has to happen. The Beothuk need to be divorced from what was done to them; from who did it to them, so they can, once again, become themselves.
How can that happen? Don’t know. Can it? Also don’t know but I think so.


