November 5th, 2011

bleh, bleh, bleh

and down most of today as well -

but -

wahooooooo!

I am live again.

November 4th, 2011

bleh

internet down all day

October 15th, 2011

in a cloud

In a mental cloud, an occasional raw pain striking, cold and tired. Not a good day for much thinking. See you tomorrow.

October 8th, 2011

howlingly funny

Not only do these guys not like actual non-Christians, they don’t even like each other. Bodes well for 2012. Pretty soon, if they talk to each other too much, there are going to be about 1,000,000 religious/political parties of 1.

It wasn’t all anti-Obama speeches at the Values Voters Summit Friday. Texas evangelical leader Robert Jeffress introduced Texas Gov. Rick Perry as a “a genuine follower of Jesus Christ,” and then explained his word choice by telling reporters that Mitt Romney “is not a Christian.”

Sort of like Obama’s not an American? Dude! You made my day.

October 7th, 2011

wowzers Eric Cantor

Eric Cantor: “the tea party has been a tremendously positive input, I think, in this election” 1:05-1:09

Eric Cantor: “If you read the newspapers today, I for one am increasingly concerned about the growing mobs occupying Wall Street and the other cities across the country. And believe it or not, some in this town have actually condoned the pitting of Americans against Americans.”

Holy fucking cow. And with a straight face.

Remember this:

Not a protestor on Wall Street

Canada has this fascination for its own brutal history as exemplified by the death of the Beothuk people. Much written material has come out trying to understand the brutality and callousness built into the country’s being. One of these bits of writing is a slim little book of poetry by Sid Stephens called Beothuk Poems.

There are, of course, no poems existing by a Beothuk person because they are all dead. Hunted, killed. The captured woman Shawnadithit was probably the last survivor, or near it anyway, and she died in 1829. Apart from her history, there are a few skeletons, some bits of tribal technology, and Shawnadithit’s few drawings.

Her capture (a bounty offered by the government so they could send word with her back to the remaining tribe but resulting in the slaughter of most of the remaining men because they were deemed to hard to catch alive) was part of the demise of the Beothuk, and a large part I suspect of the grief and rage Canada has with respect to our past, our behaviour and perhaps fear at that of which we are proved capable.

The problem is that we know, although we fight the knowledge, that it’s no good saying it’s all in the past because cruelty never is. It’s just so easy to achieve, and so easy to pretend isn’t happening.

White Settlements

Between the forest
and the other dark lost land
of the sea

the first white settlers
hang
like bits of wax
on candle rims,

indefinite, undefined
by street or schools,
melting at the back doors
into the great flame-like
heart
of this island. The sudden

warmth of cobwebs
on the face at night,
infernoes of indians
flicker in the trees
as easily as water flows
among the strange grey rocks.

Alone, unknowing:    cold sparks
of fear of sickness, injury, of
indians and thunderstorms,
of madness and devils and the
dark endless woods

are struck
in dry white minds to feed
communities of panic,

the paranoia of
civilization
becomes rooted in the land

like a myth.

The deep nature of our fear and grief at the disconnect between the National myth of our politeness and the actual exemplars of our collective potential makes writing poetry about it really difficult. It’s not that the words won’t come. They do. It’s that when they come they pull up so much pain that writing outside it becomes nearly impossible; and reading outside it seems doubly difficult.

Does Stephen manage? To some extent, but not really. There are moments in the book of empathy and great beauty but there is enough of the fear and guilt that it is hard to stay in the world of the beauty that is the Beothuk.

And I think that is what has to happen. The Beothuk need to be divorced from what was done to them; from who did it to them, so they can, once again, become themselves.

How can that happen? Don’t know. Can it? Also don’t know but I think so.

There I am, going along in the book about Robin Blaser’s poetics, all innocent and shit and blam I get sideswiped—I get told...I mean properly schooled.

So you know I’ve been trying to understand the poetics of Robin Blaser and having a miserable time of it. And probably, if you’ve read a post or two of mine you realize I’m at least of normal intelligence—I mean I don’t really think I qualify for a dumb-bunny label—but here is this woman, Miriam Nichols, in her introduction to the poetics of Robin Blaser telling me that I have an attention deficit problem and may not have what it takes to put in “the effort of attention to witness singularity”—that is to understand what the fuck Blaser is talking about.

That was about 2/3 of the way through her introduction, right near the end of her outline of Blaser’s key concepts and right before the summaries of the essays to come. I closed the book, did not throw it at the wall (library copy you know), and then drove to the library so I could give it back.

In “The Fire,” Blaser writes, “I am sometimes lost when a reader finds me uninteresting or too obscure, his interest too soon exhausted to come to any meeting”. Now, more than three decades after “The Fire” was written, and at a historical moment that offers the distractions of “thick” technology, this attention deficit is not just characteristic of the hasty reader, but also of a culture unable—or unwilling—to hold onto complexities more intricate than those of the exchange relation. The chances for a poetry that honors the singular are slim in such a context.

So if people find Blaser “too obscure” it’s because they are “hasty” readers? Cheeky fucking bitch.

When I calm down I’ll tell you what I did manage to get my poor hasty head around with respect to his poetics. But not right now. Now I think I’ll take my hasty ass to bed, or read something more at my level—a Harlequin Romance perhaps?

July 28th, 2011

Lucie Brock-Broido, a poem

The last few days, filled with horrifying Christian politicking with respect to Breivik’s deadly religious ideology, with the debt crisis blooming like a mold on the American experiment, and a small host of other small, personal experiences of a similar sort have left me almost breathless with the need for some inner nourishment and a palate cleanser. Poetry, in other words.

Luckily, at the library today, The Master Letters: Poems by Lucie Brock-Broido had come in. It’s a book of poetry based on the three letters written by Emily Dickinson that were found with her poems after her death. If you haven’t read them, you can find copies here.  The jacket blurb says of Brock-Broido, her “verse-letters echo and traverse Dickinson’s wilderness of injury and worship; her language is at once blistering and mystical.”

…at once blistering and mystical…

you judge.

Also, None Among Us Has Seen God

My Most Courageous Lord—

The Teutons  have their word for keeping Quiet which our blessing
Language does not have. To say nothing of—Agone, to say nothing

Of the monk who set himself ablaze, in autumn hair & all, the ravish
& the wool of him, the mourning & the sweetest smell of him—Alive—
How did you teach the learning of this Holding & the holding
Back—To say nothing of—Ago, obedience, the hiding in
The feral peace of speaking Not, the root & oath of it—
Old as a prehistoric furrow horse abed in awe & sediment,

Curled on his runic side, in the shape of an O, broken. Wake
Is agape, an outskirt of agony, blouse-white & bad—To say

Nothing of the nook of sleep—which is a ravage in the chamois night-
Sweat of your raff & shames, the fevers of a mirror fire, the rage

Or punishment, the Agapé, the kerosene & bone-red rag.
That was the best moment of his life. The burning down.

July 27th, 2011

just because / I dreamt

Last night I dreamt I was walking through this field – but unlike the reality – this place was in Britain, the Somerset Way to be precise. I know. But that’s the thing about dreams. It was a lovely dream. I felt enormous, the size of the view looking out from the Mendips.

taken by peardg

Then this morning, walking around the lake with the dog, I found myself longing to actually do that, to walk up there, to go back to Europe and walk around a bit.  That made me think of Aja, who is living in Paris at the moment. Maybe I’ll visit next year. I could alternate walking with coffee-shopping. Nice.

taken by Aja Dawn

There is a section in Jane Hirshfield’s Nine Gates (“The Question of Originality”) in which she talks about the origin of the word “original”. She establishes the word in English as coming out of the Latin noun origo, meaning “rising of a spring from its source in the earth”. She wants to establish the dual nature of our thinking – that we both reach inward and outward simultaneously. We are “arising” as beings and our language necessarily reflects this.

The founding metaphor comes from plants: roots go down, stems and leaves ascend. Such basic perceptions form an underground river, always available, from which we draw both our world and our words; in its fluid and fluent waters, meaning begins.

I loved this. If you think of photosynthesis as a primary tool by which life converts solar radiation into living cells, and compare animal respiration to plant photosynthesis, you can easily come to the conclusion that animals are just backwards plants. But what really continually gives me the shivers when I think about the comparison of our breath, those little gusts and hisses which produce our speech, and the gulping of light by plants, is the idea that we breathe out light every time we speak.